My The Calling the Lord has given me and My Home he gave me for Christmas last year 26&25

 Callings in the church. I am a Relief Society teacher  and I love it but sometime I wonder what heavenly father though I had to give. When I feel I am getting so much more then I give this such a cool calling I did it  once before when I was in the single ward which lasted only six months, but I love it so much now. I am glad  given the chance to do it again. I was going to school to be a teacher so to be one that lord has called is even better. I also loved my calling as a Actived Day's leader. The age between eight and twelve are my favorite age they taught me lot and helped me laugh more from when I was a youth at girls camp to now when I needed to be the adult. Which was the adult but only if someone know that often I was mistaken for one the girls even now not just when I was teen and I always had to laugh at that.  I have been able to grow so  much as I have prepared things that would strengthen sister testimony though teaching and then leading and helping build brand new little testimony of young children of god is a amazing to watch. But even if the sister I teach now are older they are so young at heart and I am glad when I get up there that there ready to receive what I have been asked to teach. Most all I enjoy feeling the love the lord has for each them and for me to let me be one of those people to be trust to tell them if they will listen to the holy ghost. When I witness that they are true children of they could feel how I know heavenly father feels about me and them.

This is old I know, I will put a new  picture of my new computer and whole house soon.

My house I am so glad I looked in to foreclose with the agent my husband was getting listing with already at the time.  That is how we got this home and to have a home to do whatever I want with and every time I make a payment it goes to paying off date not just in a land lord pocket. Our Home we have almost been here a year and we have had a first year trouble but even with them I would never go back to renting. Our house payment is a little less then our old rent but we pay a little more. We love the extra rooms we have a guest room and a toy right now but when we are done having children a room for the boys and a room for the girls and two bathroom. Good thing to there only one sink in each but the mirror goes a way across the wall in the up stair one which is good so if we have another girl. All us girls can do hair at the same time together. I also am glad to have title or wood floor everywhere in the house but the bed room so much more easier to clean. More sweeping and mopping needed but I don't mind good work out. Then to have my own washer dryer and laundry room and a computer room right off that to fold the cloth in and keep out the living room. Makes me look like a better house keeper then I am some day when I am playing taking care of my little ones. But a house to grow in and to work on is so nice. The best room in the house is the computer room it had the ugly red wall when we first moved and I hated it. So when I was gone to my mom last spring they painted over that wall and re-did the room I love it so much now to paint the kitchen cabinets they are black. I like black but it's so dark in our house with the black cabinets I am dieing to have then go. My stove is black and I love that but weather I love it or not. I can live with it because it's mine and I am grateful to the bank and our agent who helped us get in.

To be able to run and not be weary and not fainty # 27

As you know if this was me I would be modest just so you know!!

 Running and working out have become my way to get things out I can't in any other way. Besides that the way you feel when you know your lungs should hold you back and you still run anyway and get to where you are running three miles three days a week ( so want to get there again) and you can do it and you look and feel good is such a cool feeling. I started year ago last June running and riding my bike three miles a week.  when I didn't run I rode my bike and between that going to curves I got the time to think over the things I read and how really wanted to be as mother and wife. That was when I got the feel we should have our third child. I was still running when I found out about my third child up to my third month . Then it got to be to much plus I start having contractions. But the time of running let me learn something about my self. I know what I could hand so far spiritual and thought I could physical never run with Asthma because it made it so hard. Some how joining up with curves and doing short burst of running in place made such a difference in getting ready to train up to three miles. I felt like I could only run to a corner so I would focus on that then I would run to that point focus on my eyes on something a head and say the same. I final found my self running three miles. I want to be as great as my dad and run half if not full marathon it would be a life long goal to run like him. He loves running and wanting to be like him and remember him in doing something he loved that brought him great joy other then his family and the gospel. So to run and to get back to it when it's not so cold out or do it during the day when it's not as cold would be great . That will be easier when and if Kern get's home sooner from work or goes to work later that is about to change so that change if I will be running though the winter or not we shall see.

These are the coolest looking shoes. They are bare foot running shoes. Don't know if I would try them for really running but in store for fun o yeah :0)

I am grateful to be able to travel #28

The Saint George Temple. Why this picture for Travel? Well no matter where I have gone going to the temple wherever it may be in the USA has always felt like home because it's Heavenly Father house.

Travel, I have traveled to a lot of places in the United State and hope to do more traveling with my family. If I do not ever leave the USA and get to see most it I will be happy it's amazing how each new state is like another country from the way they talk to there manner everything is different. It's being able to travel to just the cape for girls camp or to a friend fair-well in Arizona. Have add to my testimony and to my love of visiting new places. But most of all places where my testimony can be strength from it. I when my whole family felt our trip to Nauvoo was better then Disney World. That was the best family trip ever. Then there was breaking down in Kirtland during a cross country trip. Then coming to find out when I meet kern that was part of his mission. I loved the John Johnson farm out that whole time there and he lived there for a time serving on the farm. Then there was the visit to  California and the bike made for seven and how unforgettable that bike ride was that it I can remember how my side hurt from laughing at how things turned out on the bike ride and after. Then my travels to from home with my family I have made in Saint George and my family I grow up with in Boston. With all the new memories I will never forget as I traveled to help family see friend go to Temples or family reunions. I am glad of the freedom to travel and the want to do so . If never took the chance I don't know how I would meet Kern when I did. I may have stayed single till I was twenty five if not twenty seven. But because I wanted to get out my little town that I love. I have gained so much more from it then I would if stayed there. Now when I visit I am so glad that grow up there and can travel back to show my children that we so blessed to be a to go where we please if have money to do so. An that we can see all the beauty of the world if wish, but if we don't we can enjoy traveling even here in Utah there is so much we have not seen  I can't wait to discover with my little family.

I am Grateful for Age, from zero to twenty six #29

Thomas all most two months old and Me just turned 26.

 Age with comes wisdom experiences and well lines and wrinkles and Gray or white hair. An sometime makes part of are body hurt or do thing it never did when we were younger. But I am not scared of age I am scared of not enjoying each age to the fullest. An yes my single collage years were cut short but I am not sad for that really. I just know I want to enjoy what age will bring and not be scared to get old I will be young again one day. Twenty six year old is how old I am shocking how fast I got here I remember that I didn't want to get married till I was twenty seven at latest my be twenty five. An here I am married and three children. An that has aged me in many good ways I know how to get four hours of sleep and still make though the day on that. I have learned how to make doing chores fun for all of us so we get more done then just playing all day.  With age and having three children I don't look the same as I did when I was younger. I look, better, I even feel like I look good wearing spite up. Which now a days that happens a lot. With age I tried to take care of my self physical and spiritual. An have learned that you have to keep up on both other wise good looks and no testimony. I would be pretty empty. I have learned from my mom and dad  and great leader in the church you can go only so long with out praying and scriptures. An best example of that is, "If the last time you read your scriptures was the last time you eat or drank are you dead yet."  Needless to say with that in mind I didn't go to bed to often with out doing both. Also with time I have learned going to bed early is so much nicer then staying up. I learned that first hand from Emma when she was a baby plague by colic. I learned sleep and going to bed early was and is now a luxury. With age I will one day be called ma and not miss but when that happens I will laugh,  still have yet to happen, now with out a question in cashier voices or look on there face. Age has also brought me to the point where my mom was at in her life where she was done having children and to at that age and to think of being done is amazing. I plan to have at least one more at most. If not two, then hope we can adopt from there but time and what each age will bring. May changed all of that, like age changes how I think about things now compared to how I thought about things when I was a child. But to still have child like view has made aging so much fun for me. I hope each year and age with my children will just as fun because so far it's been amazing.

I am grateful for TIME # 30

  The Treasure 

A loser looses time. 

A winner gains time.

Is time a treasure, or is time

a lost treasure, in the way it is used?

Is it a great treasure in the
way it is understood.
Or do we set it aside to ponder
upon, so as to get the full 
use of this special gift of time?
Setting it aside gains nothing.
It has to work in order to improve it self.
If it doesn't work it will die, not fulfilling 
it's purpose in life and a positive attitude in our life.
A.E. Maddocks

Time is something that has happen to everyone and this time on earth can seem to go so slow when your young. But with each stage of my life there has been slow moment fast moment of time and just boring ones. but I am grateful for time because it keep going even when you think you can't and you want it to stop it still moves on. An because it does keep moving it helps heal all wounds and I hope to gain something from such wounds and with time over come it all. I am grateful for time with how it has moved forward to the time that I am now a mother and wife. Best part of my time here. But also the time spent here getting to know other I know some I have meet before I came to earth. It been so cool to get that feeling but to also be a part of there live for just a little bit or till one of us goes home to our heavenly father. One of these dear people is My children Nana Dotttie who now may not even remember us because she has all timers. But she has made our time on earth rich. We tried to share the gospel with her but it's just never work out. I know that when she does past on it will be cool to do her work for her and know when she ready to except the gospel she will not have to wait long.  When I was longer I remember waiting for the day when I would find the one who take me to the temple. I felt like to would take forever now six years and three children later. Trying to get my second child J.J. potty trained seem like forever  a way. But with ever blink life goes fast I hope that I will not forget lack sleep it worth it all. Especial when take the time to enjoy breathing and living and smiling more.

Thirty thing I am grateful for, and will write about this month if possible

It's fall time, to be grateful for the leave and thirty other little things

Thirty, I will start with you and work my way down to the number one thing I am grateful for and the one thing I wish to write most about. Let see well I am grateful for time. Time to grow and learn when it moves slow though the night or when it takes forever some night to get my babies to bed or just get them to stay a sleep. I love time for bring change and it's the one thing that is always the same but never the same.


Twenty nine, Age with comes wisdom experiences and well lines and wrinkles and Gray or white hair. An sometime makes part of are body hurt or do thing it never did when we were younger. But I am not scared of age I am scared of not enjoying each age to the fullest. An yes my single collage years were cut short but I am not sad for that really. I just know I want to enjoy what age will bring and not be scared to get old I will be young again one day. Then it will be Forever!!


Twenty eight, Travel, I have travelled to a lot of places in the United State and hope to do more travelling with my family. If I do not ever leave the USA and get to see most it I will be happy it's amazing how each new state is like another country from the way they talk to there manner everything is different.


Twenty seven, Running and working out have become my way to get things out I can't in any other way. Besides that the way you feel when you know you lungs should hold you back and you still run anyway and get to where you are running three miles three days a week ( so want to get there again) and you can do it and you look and feel good because that it's so cool.


Twenty six, Callings in the church. I am a Relief Society teacher  and I love it but sometime I wonder what heavenly father though I had to give. When I feel I am getting so much more then I give this such a cool calling I did it  once before when I was in the single ward but I love it so much now. I am glad that I am glad to be given the chance to do it again. I was going to school to be a teacher so to be one that lold has called is even better.


Twenty five, My house I am so glad I looked in to foreclose with the agent my husband was getting listing with already at the time.  That is how we got this home and to have a home to do whatever I want with and every time I make a payment it goes to paying off date not just in a land lord pocket.


Twenty four, Growing up in a small town and growing up outside of Utah. I love Utah and I am glad that live here now but I would  not be who I am if I didn't go to school where I did. Live in the small town and living in New England were people are so strong about what they know made me want to be sure what I wanted out of life and also to help me know who I was.


Twenty three, The beauty of the world around me. No matter where I have stayed or lived in my life there is always something to look at and wonder in, that is beauty created for me. I love all the season for all the different wonders it hold and that I get to see each day.


Twenty two, Losing my wallet when we moved after losing it twice before once for a year at store in town. Then once at the Las Vegas airport. But when we moved to our new home it was gone. so no more wallet so had to get a new recommend and few other things. Best thing  I EVER lost I  gain so much more.


Twenty one, Hand me down cloths are so wonderful after having Thomas being able to have his older brother clothes put him in, it was great. Same goes for having cloths at all they are pain to fold but to be able to wash them and take care of them in my own home is so wonderful and to have so many at times a pain, but we never go naked that kind of nice.


Twenty, Good books I love to read and I have loved living in Utah to get LDS author that are unbelievably good. But when you have to buy each book and it's in a set of 8 or more for ten dollars a pieces it really stinks. However living here I have read so many great books that if I very move a way from Utah I will have to buy so many, so can share them with my little ones.




Nineteen, The scriptures are the best part of my day. I feel like heavenly father has handed me the personal journal of some the greatest men and some women in the world. From his own life to the Nephites and Joseph Smith. I come to see how much I need to change and work on thing but also how much heavenly father loves me.


Eighteen, New car, not brand new but new to us. My In-laws are selling us there old one for hundred dollars and we will soon have two cars. It need some work but we will have it when Kern takes Bob our other car to work. Plus we still have to name it and I haven't gotten any idea from my children but this will be my car to use whenever such a blessing.




Seventeen, General Conferences Was amazing this year both in April and Oct the things we were told to do and given up lift-meant on were just what I needed. I got to read all the talk from April and set goals plan to do the same with this month Ensign also, can't wait.


Sixteen, 28 of June 2010 Well it was a  week to the due date of our third child. We didn't have a first name for him then, yet. An I had been in the day before thinking it was the real thing. But when it wasn't and woke with same pain I though no this can't be it he would be a week early but sure enough it was. Our little Thomas after the prophet Kern after his daddy got here at 5:30pm wow it was and is one the best days of my life. He was 8 pound and 15 oz 20 1/2 inches.


Fifteen, June 19, 2004 Six year ago So six year go by in a blink and I wouldn't change a thing but to remember to bring our cake knife. Rent a tux for Kern for my bridle pictures and try and will someday make a point to go to the temple each year and do sealing. Something always has come up, so this next year we aren't going to let anything stop us.


Fourteen, Aug 1, 2010 The day  my husband gave our third child a name and a blessing and the hardest thing was there no mic. But he was blessed to follow the priesthood bear before him and to be like his name sake. Both them, and we didn't take enough picture of that weekend but it was a wonderful time to be together with all our family. Not all the Uncles ( my brothers) could be there but they were there in spirit. It was a very special day for me.


Thirteen, Five years old EMMA IS FIVE My little girl is old enough now to let her go to school note that I didn't say send I let her go. I was planing on home school but I felt she need this as well to go and learn from other good teacher then her parents. She has become quit a a little tomboy in a dress is the best way to put it. She so much like me but so her own little person who want to be a part but have her own part. She is so caring helpful and creative. My days moments and year she has been in my life have never been the same.


Twelve, Grand Parents The 12 of Oct is grandparents day and I never felt like I had a grandparent who I enjoyed the most but there were moment growing up and now that will never forget that make me laugh even today. One of them is grandma Dowdle having a fit about something to do with there mission they were going on in Africa. Don't remember the reason only that it was funny to watch a sixty something year act like a two year old. Then there is the love my parent for there grandchildren that is one best things in the world like the gift of a lobster for Emma.


Eleven, Buddy walk My little hero's and I went to show support for families with children who have special needs. It was  a wonderful and we had funny helping others so walking and playing it was great.


Ten, Locks of love I final went in to just get my hair termed, but when they asked what I wanted to do I really wasn't sure. So told the hair stylist of my want to cut my hair and give to lock of love but didn't know if I had enough. So I asked and she said you have 12 and she showed my with her comb how short it would be if I did it. An  I have been growing my hair for our whole marriage I have cut it but not this short ever. So I did, and got a free hair cut.






Nine, Wisdom teeth pulled check falling with baby check, fractured ankle priceless Kern went in for a clean one day, came back needing the rest the wisdom teeth pulled. The first two were pulled when we were first married now he need the other done. Ok no be deal took him over dropped him off got lunch went back. Went home took the Thomas up stairs to change him and well tripped over JJ truck and fell twisted my ankle really bad, I was more worried about the baby who started screaming he was fine me not so much. So before the weekend was over I got a walking cast and we all got to stay home from church together so fun. Unforgettable weekend.


Eight, My Dad 's I say Dad's because there is first and for most my dad who raised me and then my father in law who are both a lot a like in that they are hard workers. I have learned from my dad that you talk with heavenly father every morning and night if have to read something when your going to be spending time in the bathroom the scripture are a good one. An Holiday's are not play days there are work days. My other dad let me know how not to talk to my husband and how if I need anything he is there. The dad who trust me to make it back with my family and his trust well placed shows me I am the most important thing he will ever have in this world and he want me home with honour.




Seven, My Mom's I say Mom's also because my Mom is the one I want to be most like but there is also the way my teacher Lori, showed a to teach in a way I wanted to teach as Mom she was a Mom to me in that moment. There is my Mom laughing at me when she know I did something bad but finding it funny. Teaching me sometimes it better to laugh. There is Edie to teaching me to let my children of have agency but help understand there agency. My Mom showing how to bake and cook and Becky teaching me how to cook some of my husband favourite.




Six, The Holidays like them or not when things go wrong or right I am glad I have them with my family here, Boston or wherever. I would not have some thing best and silly moment with out such holidays but if we could have less drama that would be great. Then again I think it will only prepare me for my own teen drama my children will have at that time with boys girls or life all together. It's only going to be better from here more fun and also more a bout what matter most he true meaning behind the holiday and those I love again testimony and wonderful moments.




Five, The Holy Ghost He brought my husband and together he told us to start our family. He has guided me though school what to do with my little ones when I worry. He is one my best friend and I am so glad that he was given to me as gift at eight I hope only to teach my children better then, I was taught how to use him from start. How to feel him close and why you or anyone would want him as there best friend.




Four,My Boys, I have two boys now JJ and Thomas are my little men there so sweet JJ is the one who loves hair he want to just play with. He was my biggest worry when I cut my hair, don't worry he still plays with it. He smiled from the minute he was born till now. Thomas is my big boy ready to go a week early and looks just like daddy jj a good mix of both Thomas is his daddy double. He loves to talk the minute he started screaming to ever little sound he loves to let you know he is here to be held or listened too.


Three, My Girl Emma is so like me the little girl in dress climbing the tree and getting dirty.She loves her hair long hate doing anything with it. She also is the biggest help with her brother being a little mother to them but also being willing to let them know when they bug her or step out of line. She has here dad mind when come to learning things and she loves to sing.


Two My Husband, Mr. Bowler holds my heart and beyond the lord my trust in way no one has before him. He makes me laugh and stand by me no matter what. He not perfect but his mine and we are sealed in the temple so have heavenly father help in all of thing. Kern has help with my goals and my testimony I love him.






One My Heavenly Father and My Testimony if had to give it all to be with heavenly father, I feel I would do so. Heavenly Father has given me everything I have my family my life and my chance to use my agency to get back to him or not. My testimony is my  way of getting though everything the things the holy ghost has witnessed to me  remind me of where I came from and where I plan to return one day. I hope and pray I never have to choice between family and or something just as dear as the lord. Because it may almost kill me but I will choose the my God.
 

Fifty things, I love about you being fifty

(To My Dad just because he is amazing and always there for.)

One, having  a party combine party with your Grandson who is two and getting to see how young a Grandpa you really are.

Two, the fact that your grandson cares your middle name. It would been your first but you didn't want him to be teased about it in school.


Three, son is a great honor to have they may not always listen to you like they should but they all look up to  you and love believe or not.


Four, is the number of children you  have. But don't worry the number of grandchildren you have will be at least double that if not more.  if possible


Five, minute with and that is all you need to tell people about the gospel. It shows in your walk and talk but if and when you get the chances you share it.


Six, is how many all together are in are family it may not be much but you are are our fearless leader and as you follow heavenly father will go where you go with out questions.


Seven, the day we became seven us and the cat you didn't like at all but the cat loved you and know who to kiss you too. You like him now.


Eight, the day we became eight and we brought the dog in you really didn't like that day. Now you are waiting for the day he died because he doesn't like you anymore then you like him.


Nine, when we got to nine in our family I think we were all glad it wasn't the cow you were going to get because we got a dog. Mom and you welcome Edie in to our home which we now are so glad you did.


Ten, years goes by in blink you had us and we welcomed Edie and before you know your oldest children are gone to school. Then one comes home says she is getting married and now you have tow grandchildren soon three. 

Eleven, Twelve, Thirteen, Fourteen, Fifteen, Sixteen, Seventeen, Eighteen, Nineteen, I think you were so glad when all your children made though there teen safely. But when all were able to date and start driving I think you wanted to backward in age instead forward.

Twenty, So that when I got married yes a year younger then you but I wasn't going to be as young as mom a teenager still. An I know you worried and still worry but thanks for being there and supporting me in the best choices of my life.


Twenty One, I know  twenty one reasons not say I am bored. You always found work for us to do. An even thought I only lived in your house just short of 21 I know that if you don't find something to do you would find work for us.


Twenty Two, Twenty Three, Twenty Four, Twenty Five, Twenty Six, Twenty Seven, Twenty Eight, Twenty Nine, Thirty, I  know that being late for church was something you hated so always tried and did get there early. Sometime thirty minute or more but it showed to us all. Being on time to anything is really important being on time to church was double that.


Thirty, is how old your son in law will be you are twenty year older then him looking back. Is thirty that old. He thinks he is old when he turns thirty. Your fifty and your not old so when you can tell him what it was like for you. You make Fifty look easy Thirty must have been a breeze.


Thirty One, I am sure you could name Thirty One things we your children did or didn't do that you wish we had when you asked or even if you didn't ask you wish we had not. Don't worry your grandchildren are getting even for you on my end so be happy about that.


Thirty Two, Thirty Three, Thirty Four, Thirty Five, Thirty Six, Thirty Seven, Thirty Eight, Thirty Nine, Forty, I think that is about how many time if not more would wake up to your singing O What A Beautiful Morning. It was the best times those morning a long with that we had started over and over trying to make it a habit of reading scriptures. It didn't always stick no matter how hard you tried, but we know that singing and scripture were important for our family.


Forty One, I remember that is only took five minute was all took to do a job. Or so you said was five minute growing  up that turned in to ten the twenty then thirty . So some day it will be forty because lets face one day you will be old. 


Forty Two,  Being there for me to talk or give a blessing keep me out of lot trouble. I hope it does the same for my children.


Forty Three, For being super human your in pain everyday yet you push through it and you have never had caffeine expect for hot chocolate to keep you going.


Forty Four,  You are so honesty and even when teased for years about a cow that gave chocolate milk. You wouldn't back down it was true. You found when married mom how was gone. So I learned stick to you to the truth. 


Forty Five, That you named me Melissa, and that you wanted to be my dad before we got here you took on a lot.


Forty Six,  When we would ask where we going "crazy want to come."
I tell your grand children the same thing now.

Forty Seven, When my children start to cry I tease with your weeeehheee cry that you always did to us and Emma and JJ both find it funny. But the trouble with that is they do it with Thomas who doesn't understand the whole joke but the tease of favorite crying goes on because it's something I loved and still do about you. 

Forty Eight, I do what you do I try to always get them to smile like you do now and did when we were young. I say here it comes here it comes and then they smile and get mad about like we did but it always made me feel better. The same happens with your grand children. 

Forty Nine, That you helped me learn to get up early and not get mad when I am woken up early by little ones or anyone for that matter at girls camp whatever to be there for others then to make the sleep later if I can if not know I will be able to rest more from worries when I am dead.


FIFTY,  you are so amazing it may taken well over fifty days to get this out. An life has keep us both at fifty miles an hour run all day long. But I am so glad that I could share with our family and friend how wonderful you are dad. I sure am glad to be your daughter and that you live fifty years of amazing example anyone would be proud of . I know this four month shy of your next birthday but I couldn't go with out saying I how grateful I am that your my dad.